Good Things Ahead

(TW Mentions of Suicide)

When you’re in the darkness of deep depression and having suicidal thoughts you lose hope for the future. You start to not care about what the future holds and nothing seems to help bring you out.

I have felt incredibly guilty for having suicidal thoughts and ideation because I question how I could possibly feel this way when I have the biggest blessings, I have 2 beautiful babies, an amazing husband and family. I have the best little dog and surrounded by lovely people. It doesn’t make sense to me that I struggle so much with having these overwhelming feelings of wanting to end my life.

After A LOT of therapy, changing medications, starting an exercise routine, involving myself in church and seeking more of an understanding of God I’m slowly starting to see that there are good things in the future! I have hope, hope that God will get me to the other side of healing.

Whoever is feeling stuck in the darkness and is thinking that they won’t live to see the future, I pray in Jesus name that any thoughts of harm will leave, no more torment or suffering, I pray who ever is reading this you start to see even the smallest glimpse of hope. Amen!